It’s hurt.

Honestly, i don’t understand. How can it be this hurts. It’s almost 2 in the morning and i can’t close my eyes. The pain keeps my heart bleeding for hours. My mind just fucked up, can’t really think about anything that makes me feel better.

Tried to play some games, watch some videos, or simply just closing my eyes, it’s no use. At all. My heart keeps pounding, i literally wanna scream so loud and just throw this pain away. Am i depressed or something?

I’m writing these in a dark room using my phone. So I’m sorry if the text are a bit messed up. Im just too fucked up to write with the proper tool. I don’t know, I don’t know what am i supposed to do at this moment. I genuinely want to reach out for someone but i don’t think anyone is out there. So after wasting sometime, i ended up here on my blog, writing this shitty post.

I don’t know whether I’m supposed to tell what’s going on or not. It’s just a simple word that i got, ‘you just the same like the others‘. This words, hurt me so badly. It just instantly makes me wanna die. So bad. Maybe because it’s came out from a dear of mine. But i genuinely don’t understand, how can a simple words literally cut my heart.

My tears are falling down, the beat on my chest just getting worse time by time. I’m literally stunned and don’t know how to react except for being sad and hurt so badly. Maybe I’m just being over dramatic. Or it’s just because I’m depressed.

Oh crap. Just thinking about it makes me feel bad. And it’s just worst because i can’t get rid of it from my mind.

I’ll do whatever it takes, when I’m with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain’t
With you I have zero strength
There’s no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think is
Gonna be that one and then once we get ’em it’s never the same
You want them when they don’t want you, soon as they do, feelings change