It’s been 3 months since the last time I post something on this very blog. And yes, I decided to change the domain from my own name to this stupid little acronym which apparently confuses everyone. It’s been very confusing for me as well to be honest. I don’t know what’s going on with my life but apparently everything started to falling apart since a month ago.
I don’t even know if I can still survive another day to be honest. I’m on the current state of mind where everything feels hopeless and useless. Even if someone says they do care, feels kind of bullshit at this point since it only came out as a sentence which most of the time means nothing and doesn’t really changing anything other than giving this fragile person a false hope.
I know, another stupid rants about life when I’m feeling down. But hey, what am I supposed to do? I literally don’t have anyone comfortable enough to talk about these things. All I can do is to write it down and just… I don’t know. I can’t expect anything anymore. Even a thing called ‘hope’ doesn’t really mean that much for me anymore.
But hey, at least I can still stream my stupidity on twitch.tv for god knows how long time I have left 🙂 I know that I’m not the most entertaining person on the earth, most of the time I’m just a douchebag who can shit on everyone. But at least, it’s the real me and I’m not pretending to be someone else.